What transformation has occurred for you this year?  For me, it has been one of learning, making mistakes, connections and traveling through much of the Midwest and to South Africa. As the year began, I noticed that I was following everyone—Robin, the volunteers, whoever—to  learn about how to be on the ground at The Light Center.

Then came an amazing trip to Sunrise Ranch in Loveland, CO.  They opened their hearts and shared wisdom with us that awakened in me a deeper understanding of how community, organic sustainable farming, spiritual growth and retreats can work so harmoniously together.  Kelly and I left there inspired to see TLC grow even further in healthy ways.

As the summer rolled around, I was deeply connected with the Youth of Unity and with the LoveLight International Youth Ambassadors (IYAs) visiting from South Africa.  They were joined by this year’s American IYAs here at TLC to plan the upcoming camp in South Africa. I watched proudly as the IYAs from the US were supporting the process for the IYAs from South Africa.  It was a powerful reminder to me that in holding space for someone else we are in turn holding space for ourselves.

As the fall settled in, I found myself anxious with the urge to release things that I no longer needed. Learning that I do not have control over anything outside of me reminded me of how we all sometimes have to grow up in public.  And how together we can support each other.

The TLC birthday in November rocked my understanding of how many of us have deep-rooted connections with this ground, these woods, the events, and each other here at The Light Center.  If you long for more of this, connect and we will invite your skills, love of nature and creation to support the tending of this beautiful land.

In this last month I have found myself pushed to the limits of stress in releasing our townhouse in Kansas City and got to practice stepping back from the edge when it was too much. The self-care to meditate, take a walk in the woods or connect with Gaby (the TLC dog) as Robin, Kelly and I share the joy of being loved by this magnificent friend.

Now on this last day of the decade, I feel the deep gratitude for all of these experiences, the people and the awakenings.  I hope that you feel this deep, loving gratitude as well and will spread it to others as we all step into this new year.

In love and Light – Martin


As we close out 2019, we are using the following questions to reflect back on the year.  It’s a nice way of reflecting on the lessons, highs and lows, and perhaps use that earned wisdom to improve our future choices.  Answer some or all of these questions yourself, perhaps in your journal.

1. What makes this year unforgettable?
2. What did you enjoy doing this year?
3. What/who is the one thing/person you’re grateful for?
4. What’s your biggest win this year?
5. What did you read/watch/listen to that made the most impact this year?
6. What did you worry about most and how did it turn out?
7. What was your biggest regret and why?
8. What’s one thing that changed about yourself?
9. What surprised you the most this year?
10. If you could go back to last January 1, what suggestions would you give your past self?
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